Heart of life

                                                                        
I’m just listening to this song from John Mayer  called “Heart of life” ,having a flavored wild berries yogurt and just surfing through my laptop (since I’m still in Dubai and don’t have access to internet..) Was just reading Jeffrey Archer’s collection of short stories and finished another one alongside all the mundane activities. But, I’m majorly distracted. So what can give me a release right now, well, a little bit of writing which I haven’t done in such a long long time!

Back to the song...How beautiful are these lyrics, I’m playing it another time now-


“You know its nothing new, bad news never had good  timing.
Then circle of your friends, will defend the silver lining!
Pain throws your heart to the ground, love turns the whole thing around!
No it won’t all go the way it should but,I know the heart of life is good.”
Pain throws your heart to the ground, love turns the whole thing around!
Fear is a friend who is misunderstood but, i know the heart of life is good!

Such lyrics at such an introspective, isolated and quiet time get me thinking about “Circle of friends”, “Fear being a friend” and “Love turning the whole thing around.”

Having worn my  heart on my sleeve and my anger on my fat little nose,  I’ve made few genuinely close friends and a whole lot of enemies too .Yet, I never give up trying to make new friends. Each person who was /is my friend, has taught me something or the other! Some taught love and giving, some taught me how “not to be like them” and a few others taught me, that, not all friends are your “real friends!”
There are some friends who I can be my craziest  self with, some who keep me grounded and in touch with Allah and my deen and duniya. And then again, a few, who you just hang out with and have fun time pass with. Those who “ understand” you, stay, the rest , well, they just do their bit in your story and become a previous chapter in your book!

I love the ones that “stay”-with all my heart and soul !  I can’t act indifferent if someone bothers or upsets me, no matter how hard I try. Is this a part of growing up? If yes, then I’d take a lifetime to grow up and inculcate indifference !  It sure doesn’t come naturally to me. Till very recently,I was the one who’d go upto people and open conversations. People I’ve seen somewhere or have known through family or friends!
I recently stopped this and instantly, felt a sense of relief ! It freed me from trying to please anyone and everyone!

I get too excited visiting friends or when my friends are visiting me , don’t ever take it as a formality or a duty or an obligation . If I get that feeling for someone, I don’t see them at all.Then there are friendships which we think are forever cemented with love but,over time they get  weakened due to insecurities, jealousy, setting higher expectations  or ignoring other person’s feelings. Time has made me realise,each relationship comes with a particular lifeline. Just  as how, we humans die and souls depart , relationships die and the people move to belong to some other.

The only relationship that lasts and should matter is the one you have with God and most important, the one you have with yourself. Once we learn to love ourselves, we’ll not have to face hurt or resentment. That fear of loneliness ,of heartbreaks makes us more attached to the ones we love, the ones we never want to let go off! Make yourself a little detached. Live and be,for” yourself!” You, will never fail yourself!

Pain,suffering are a part of life just as pleasure and happiness are. Live each feeling with an assurance that its temporary. Don’t brood too much though it’s alright to rejoice too much (*crazy grin* )...

Make friends....fall in love--more than once  (if it has failed once or twice) Don’t close your heart’s doors to the idea of love if it failed once. There’s no end to love on this earth.

They very rightly say the only thing constant is change! Live with that and just know whatever happens to you -the heart of life is good!
J



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