I’ve always observed that the dreams/things/people we run most behind; always abandon us in the middle of nowhere. We are left hurt, incomplete and somewhat deceived!
When I was a little girl, I don’t really remember what my dreams were about? But, growing up I remember I always wanted to become a performer (actress/dancer).I was fascinated by all the heroines I watched on the video cassettes my dad had. There were “Bobby,Saagar,Chandni,Chaalbaaz,Sadma” among few others which topped my list of favourites.So,needless to say I loved Sridevi and Dimple Kapadia. Guess some filmy traits I have came from these movies I saw repeatedly! Whether it’s the gundagardi inspired from Sridevi in Chaalbaaz or her histrionics from Sadma ;)
How can a dream change every night I used to wonder? But, then I thought the more the merrier...A new day, a new dream...I always looked forward to my sleeping time at night so that I could dream a different dream in the night!I feel the sleep is incomplete and boring if its without a dream. And I would often wake up wondering why my night was dark and blank when I didn’t have a dream!
Sometimes I dreamt of winning my race the next day or becoming a ballerina or a gymnast or for that matter becoming a performer. But, the one dream that was constant was of being loved!
Today at this cross road in my life, I'm dreaming different dreams and trying to see which will become my reality! I’m 30 and jobless. I gave up banking to become an actor; I’m giving up acting to become something else now! (Still trying to figure out what?)I write as a passion and dance for the same! These are the 2 things that keep me going in low times. Good music –I can listen to music 24*7-365 days! My dance classes are a different world for me. I’m not myself, I’m who I’d want to be.(I’m still getting there, shedding my inhibitions.) I have no regrets, because I tried everything I wanted to be, and however much a confused lunatic I might come across, I’m enjoying the chaos in this confusion because, somewhere in the deep corners of my mind, this chaos is settling down a lot of turmoils! I’ll know it when the time comes. My heart reassures me of this!
I often hear this song:
Dream a little dream for me
“Stars shining bright above you,
Night breezes seem to whisper "I love you,"
Birds singing’ in the sycamore trees
Dream a little dream of me.
Say nighty-night and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you’ll miss me,
While I’m alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me.
Stars fading but I linger on dear
Still craving your kiss,
I’m longin’ to linger till dawn dear
Just saying this.
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me”
Oh what a perfect world song this is...”sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you.” We all dream of this I guess, escaping from reality in to our own dream worlds! And oh yes, we seek for a “dream of me” from our loved ones too.But, all of us have that one dream, a dream that longs for fulfilment. I guess, in my case that one prevailed over the rest, and for me, my dream was to be loved! To be loved by a man who’ll understand and accept me with my madness and with all my mood swings! Would take care of me like no other.(I would’ve loved it if he accepted me with my dreams too,but,letting go off the greediness I am content with whatever he has accepted me with);-) There’s nothing like having those comforting arms to hold you tight when you are down and out in life! And in a city like Mumbai, you sure as hell need that the most!
We travelled a rough path and reached a destination and from hereon we pledge to make several more journeys together through dust storms, rain, and thunder n shower. Through tsunamis and droughts. We look ahead to make our memories to cherish forever.
I have no qualms in admitting my dreams change. I’m just another human being and like the earth rotates and things change-seasons, times, colour of our hair as we grow old, wrinkles on the skin...well so does the mind and the dreams that go on in it. And after all dreams are the only thing left among few others that are tax free ;) so I encourage everyone to dare and dream a different dream each day,yet,of course, hold on to the one closest to your heart because, you don’t know when God is in a good mood to bestow some kindness on you. He might just be seeing you now, while you open eye-dly (is that a word? heck who cares) dream another one for yourself!Happy dreaming dreamers! :-)
Signing off with another of my favourite no.: You must plug in and listen to this no.
Ooo ooo ooo
Ooo ooo ooo
Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high,
And the dreams that you dreamed of,
Once in a lullaby.
Oh, somewhere over the rainbow,
blue birds fly, And the dreams that you dreamed of,
Dreams really do come true.
Someday, I'll wish upon a star,
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me.
Where trouble melts like lemon drops,
High above the chimney top,
That's where you'll find me.
Oh, somewhere, over the rainbow, bluebirds fly,
And the dreams that you dare to.
Oh why, oh why can't I?
When I was a little girl, I don’t really remember what my dreams were about? But, growing up I remember I always wanted to become a performer (actress/dancer).I was fascinated by all the heroines I watched on the video cassettes my dad had. There were “Bobby,Saagar,Chandni,Chaalbaaz,Sadma” among few others which topped my list of favourites.So,needless to say I loved Sridevi and Dimple Kapadia. Guess some filmy traits I have came from these movies I saw repeatedly! Whether it’s the gundagardi inspired from Sridevi in Chaalbaaz or her histrionics from Sadma ;)
How can a dream change every night I used to wonder? But, then I thought the more the merrier...A new day, a new dream...I always looked forward to my sleeping time at night so that I could dream a different dream in the night!I feel the sleep is incomplete and boring if its without a dream. And I would often wake up wondering why my night was dark and blank when I didn’t have a dream!
Sometimes I dreamt of winning my race the next day or becoming a ballerina or a gymnast or for that matter becoming a performer. But, the one dream that was constant was of being loved!
Today at this cross road in my life, I'm dreaming different dreams and trying to see which will become my reality! I’m 30 and jobless. I gave up banking to become an actor; I’m giving up acting to become something else now! (Still trying to figure out what?)I write as a passion and dance for the same! These are the 2 things that keep me going in low times. Good music –I can listen to music 24*7-365 days! My dance classes are a different world for me. I’m not myself, I’m who I’d want to be.(I’m still getting there, shedding my inhibitions.) I have no regrets, because I tried everything I wanted to be, and however much a confused lunatic I might come across, I’m enjoying the chaos in this confusion because, somewhere in the deep corners of my mind, this chaos is settling down a lot of turmoils! I’ll know it when the time comes. My heart reassures me of this!
I often hear this song:
Dream a little dream for me
“Stars shining bright above you,
Night breezes seem to whisper "I love you,"
Birds singing’ in the sycamore trees
Dream a little dream of me.
Say nighty-night and kiss me
Just hold me tight and tell me you’ll miss me,
While I’m alone and blue as can be
Dream a little dream of me.
Stars fading but I linger on dear
Still craving your kiss,
I’m longin’ to linger till dawn dear
Just saying this.
Sweet dreams till sunbeams find you
Sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you
But in your dreams whatever they be
Dream a little dream of me”
Oh what a perfect world song this is...”sweet dreams that leave all worries behind you.” We all dream of this I guess, escaping from reality in to our own dream worlds! And oh yes, we seek for a “dream of me” from our loved ones too.But, all of us have that one dream, a dream that longs for fulfilment. I guess, in my case that one prevailed over the rest, and for me, my dream was to be loved! To be loved by a man who’ll understand and accept me with my madness and with all my mood swings! Would take care of me like no other.(I would’ve loved it if he accepted me with my dreams too,but,letting go off the greediness I am content with whatever he has accepted me with);-) There’s nothing like having those comforting arms to hold you tight when you are down and out in life! And in a city like Mumbai, you sure as hell need that the most!
We travelled a rough path and reached a destination and from hereon we pledge to make several more journeys together through dust storms, rain, and thunder n shower. Through tsunamis and droughts. We look ahead to make our memories to cherish forever.
I have no qualms in admitting my dreams change. I’m just another human being and like the earth rotates and things change-seasons, times, colour of our hair as we grow old, wrinkles on the skin...well so does the mind and the dreams that go on in it. And after all dreams are the only thing left among few others that are tax free ;) so I encourage everyone to dare and dream a different dream each day,yet,of course, hold on to the one closest to your heart because, you don’t know when God is in a good mood to bestow some kindness on you. He might just be seeing you now, while you open eye-dly (is that a word? heck who cares) dream another one for yourself!Happy dreaming dreamers! :-)
Signing off with another of my favourite no.: You must plug in and listen to this no.
Ooo ooo ooo
Ooo ooo ooo
Somewhere, over the rainbow, way up high,
And the dreams that you dreamed of,
Once in a lullaby.
Oh, somewhere over the rainbow,
blue birds fly, And the dreams that you dreamed of,
Dreams really do come true.
Someday, I'll wish upon a star,
Wake up where the clouds are far behind me.
Where trouble melts like lemon drops,
High above the chimney top,
That's where you'll find me.
Oh, somewhere, over the rainbow, bluebirds fly,
And the dreams that you dare to.
Oh why, oh why can't I?
wat r ur dreams now?
ReplyDeletei wonder how people chase only one dream in their lives. We alsmot spend one life to figure out our dreams.
anyways.
I wish I had a girl like u in my life.
I guess it is bit too late.
Anyways, all the best for ur marriage.
U don't know me. But I have read everything abt u. n know almost every thing abt u. i still remember surfing net for hours just to read abt u.
God bless U.
M still trying to figure out what my dreams r now...jus goin with the flow and may b let life weave itself around me and my dreams...thanks for ur best wishes and all those comments.And trust me u wudnt want a girl like me,God bless u for being saved...lol.
ReplyDeleteNO, GOD DIDN'T SAVE ME. INFACT HE RUINED ME. ....lol.......
ReplyDeleteYAAR AASAAN NAHIN HOTA...., KEH JIS KAY LIYA DIL MAIN FEELINGS HO, AUR WOHI TUM SAY DOOR CHALA JAYA. YAA YOON KAHAIN KEH AAKHERI UMEED BHI KHATEM HOO. aUr HAAN FEELINGS KA PATA BHI TABHI CHATA H. JAB TUM SAY KOOI DOOR CHALA JATA H, USAY PEHLA TO CASUAL ATTITUDE HOOTA H(KISI BHI CHEEZ KI VALUE USAY KHOONAY K BAAD MALOOM HOOTI H).
FILMI DUNIYA KI FICTIONAL STORIES 2DAY I AM EXPERIENCING IT. REALISING THE MEANING OF DAT WORD "KAASH".
ANYWAYS, WAT WUD HAV BEEN UR REPLY HAD I PROPOSED U EARLIER........(i DIDN'T EXPECT U TO MARRY SO SOON, OTHERWISE STORY CUD HAVE BEEN DIFFERENT). NOW DON'T TELL ME, "I DON'T KNOW U". BECOZ KNOWING SOME ONE ISN'T A BIG DEAL.
WUD HAV LUVD 2 GIV NAME, IF IT WAS BIT PRIVATE HERE.
Trust in Allah,he has reasons for everything...i dun answer the hypothetical questions..of if n whys?i questions God,not humans if I have to.Whatever happens is written by him and its best we walk the path he has chosen for us.All the best for ur life and wud rlly appreciate if u comment on jus the writings n not personally "please".tk cr.
ReplyDeleteSorry. I try 2 rite only abt writings. Sometimes get carried away a bit n ask few Questions which I shudn't, may b i do not have any other platform to ask u other questions. I even tried adding u on facebook, but with no luck. anyways will try not to do it in future, sorry if it hurt u. these are never my intensions to hurt u.
ReplyDeleteLuving sum one z never in our hands, it just happens..........................
ReplyDeleteThe real passion of loving some one is the way he or she is, not by customizing them.
It loses its sheen once u change them.
I personally believe so......................
I believe so too,that one shudnt change for the one they love,its just about adjusting to each others' habits and lifestyles and gelling well with it....
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