I’ve learnt that as we grow up, we should stop whining about the things we don’t have and the people who are not with us in life, because , there are reasons God brought them to our lives and he sure as hell, had his reasons, why he took them away when he did!
What I’ve never been able to understand and I often keep wondering and foolishly keep questioning to the God “worshippers” around me is- Why is God so unjust and cruel towards certain living beings,be it humans or animals? Here I’m referring to people with birth defects.
Not very long ago, I had a chance to work with AIDS infected children at one of the NGOs and was surprised that when I was trying to collect more volunteers from my workplace most people’s first reactions were “Are we also going to get infected if we come in their close contact?” And then I thought, that question didn’t even strike me once? I just wanted to go and see how these kids lived and felt? I was curious...!More than curious I was just I don’t know what, I don’t have that word...for the first time I don’t have that right word...!But I knew I just wanted to go and I couldn’t thank my boss enough for asking me to organise this. Needless to say the experience was a joy. The kids were delighted to see us, receive the goodies from us and play games with us. Some of them said we should continue seeing them because they had a lot of fun with us and how I wish I could keep up to their expectations. Alas, the work pressure and travel schedules of my job couldn’t let me keep pace and I lost track. I’m still trying to see how I can touch base and be in touch and help these kids in my little ways that I can.
On another very recent occasion, I was leaving a friend’s house, when I saw a slightly bulky 20 something , mentally unstable boy running towards, me while I was getting out from the lift with something in his hand. My first reaction was “fear” and I immediately called my friend on the phone and my one leg was in the lift and the other outside it because I was unsure of his action. I asked if it was okay I crossed him and my friend replied there was nothing to worry. I felt embarrassed and very ashamed of myself for asking him that but, I think somewhere we all are conditioned in such a manner, that we tend to believe that a person who is mentally unstable might harm you or hit or throw things that they have in their hands at you! So when I crossed him I waved at him saying a “Hi”, but, to my dismay he didn’t respond, guess he knew how I felt! Sigh!
The next time I went to this friend’s house I saw this boy downstairs and said a “Hi” again. He was oblivious to anyone around him, playing in his make believe world, he totally ignored me. My 1st conversation was obviously about this boy when I reached up at my friend’s house. To my surprise or rather dismay I was told this boy’s mother passed away when he was very young. Now why would God do that? 1st make him the way he is and then take “his” mother out of all the children in the world? Leave him alone in this world where people stare at him and wonder why he is the way he is, make him incapable of a normal life and not good enough for his father’s old age either. Why would God be so harsh and cruel, if there is a God where is his sense of balance on earth?
The reason I’ve stopped visiting temples and doing any pujas is coz I don’t believe God really listens to this “makhanbaazi.” He does exactly what he wants to do and what he has planned to do no matter how many diyas you light for him and no matter how many stones you wear to please him or call him to you. I’ve been there done that. Had a mandir at home where I kept all possible idols and worshipped Gods from all religions. Now I believe in God and I do believe he created us and we survive in this world because of him and the theory of karma and paap and punya but at the same time , I can’t visit mandir,masjid,church or gurudwaras ( though I still hold that I got the max peace goin to the gurudwaras-they are the least politicised so far-nobody demands dakshina in the name of Lord-u give “if u want” to give & “if u can give”!) Though again, to each his own, with due respect to everyone who does this...this is my space and I’m voicing what I feel(coz I know this could be a target of a lot of unwanted comments and arguments here)
When I die and go to God I need to ask God a million things and he’ll have to spend some extra hours( a lot more than he’ll spend with many others ) to convince me with his answers on the why-s and why not-s on earth. He sent us on earth – ok, he is making us live a life he designed for us – ok, he rewards us, he punishes us , he makes us go through an array of emotions all unanswered- just felt and speculated. After all he will have to sit and answer his children sometime about thy "whys", like all parents do! (Here I’m assuming he’ll do it when I meet him up there)
Though there are a zillion childish questions in my edgy heart I’ll list down the ones that really bother me a lot :
Why does he say that all human beings are his children and make everyone differently then? I mean it’s okay to make someone more beautiful and someone less beautiful, some dark skinned and some light skinned. (to me very person is beautiful in their own special way, I have always snapped back at people who’ve called a fat or dark person “not beautiful”) But why put the idea of racism in their brains then?
Why did he create human beings and put religions in their head? Why did he have to happen differently to everyone in every corner of the world, could he not just come in one form , in one religion called God?!! More so, he came so strongly to everyone that everyone believes their origin and versions are correct and the rest are wrong...I’d rather not believe ‘any’ than being forced to believe so many! Please forgive me for the same God. I’d rather be ignorant than be a confused lunatic!
Why did he make people fall in love if they were not meant to be together forever? At this liminal I’m numb about love and relationships because the feeling has been spent on someone...someone it was never going to work out with. Someone genuinely a gem of a person, yet God chose to keep his gem away from him and mine away from me and made 2 wrong gems cross paths?! Why make wrong lovers cross paths, cause separation, tears, bitterness, sorrow, divorces - is that his idea of making poets out of people? God...I think I’m going crazy today , I’m writing whatever is coming to my mind..
The best poetry and lyrics come out of sad people’s lives...have read Meena Kumari’s nazms,Faiz’s poetry, Ghalib’s shers and lots others...”oh sweet pain, how you make poetry flow out of the most beautiful people’s lives ...even pain becomes sweet for it made words flow out and that becomes an outlet! Another wonder from God?!
Why put superstitious beliefs come true? Why let things like black magic become powerful enough to effect anything? I thought his power was the supreme? They must’ve come true sometime which’s why people fear and have the cures and solutions of those!
Why create rules in certain books which say following the music of your heart and soul is forbidden and will take you to hell...Would I have to go to hell if I dance to the music of my soul, the soul which you have put in me?
Why did he not make earth flat and make all climates for the entire world to enjoy together...?
Why the class disparity?
Why the rich the poor?
Why some have crores to spend on their moronic weddings and the others sleep on pavements?
Why some have 10 cars and a personal plane and others work their ass off and make their day and living in local trains! Do they work any less?! Some could, some not!
You want some destruction God? Okay, have it your way but, why don’t you have a natural disaster at a place where there are these corrupt politicians sitting together or these people who are spoiling the country fighting in the name of religion...why do you kill more poor innocents!?If you can't handle them together up there imagine us?!
How do u bear people fighting in the name of a piece of land of the birth place of some God?!!Demolishing places of worships, burning houses, burning trains, bombarding towers ,killing innocent people, raping women even children, is this what you would’ve thought they’d do in the name of you? Make sure you punish these people in your own way when they come up to you! No religion no God( though I believe there’s only one God) would approve of any such atrocious actions)
Why killings in the name of honour?Honour killing – I mean how can someone kill their own blood/kin for their stupid honour? What face will they show you, make sure you have the devil boil them in the hot oil for this. They have honour killings yet can’t make euthanasia legal for someone suffering since 35 yrs! They can’t hang Kasab who has killed hundreds of innocent people again in the name of religion!
Why he is letting man’s brain run so fast as to create things like drugs...for after using them man always feels next to God...?!!Is it? Did u really need to make drugs to make someone get close to you? When someone insisted I started it once I just had 1 thing to say- Where you see heaven I see a haven of wasteland my friend and am glad I’ve stuck my ground! Again...to each his own- I have absolutely nothing against the people who do it and go next to God with this, have some absolutely amazing awesome people I’ve known who do this and it just gets me curious so I put this up here, nothing else!
Why did u think of creating Adam and Eve and not 2 Adams and 2 Eves...with the changing ways of the world and changing preferences , shouldn’t you have started the world in such a way that people wouldn’t have pointed fingers at homosexuals! May be you could’ve had 2 more Eves and 2 more Adams...hmmmm...again..I dunno what am I writing now...I guess, the smoke from the last night’s party has gone to my brain cells and done this! Imagine just the smoke doing this to me...I bet the ciggys n alcohol does much more to people! ;-) lol..
You bring everyone to life and then you make us lose ourselves in something or the other- in love,in life,in alcohol- everyone is somewhere trying to search for themselves or something else!!! When will the search end...?
I saw the movie The Gods must be crazy...don't know why but loved that one community living in total ignorance of this world created by us humans! I can’t go to living like them because I’ve not grown up like them but , had I grown up there I think I wouldn’t have had migraines or any such stress related ailments bothering me at my age!
Why have so many patients in so many hospitals?...Why so many old age homes and thankless kids abandoning their parents? Parents who’ve made them grow up being left at the mercy of some nurses who don’t care much about listening to their life stories...
On a lighter and more closer look to my life – I wonder how God allows this to happen?Why some directors who make flop films one after the other, get finances and releases , yet, the others with fantastic scripts are sitting in their confines waiting for a f$*%@ big actor or a producer or someone to strategise it for them?!Why some struggle to be launched as actors yet others just have to be born in a film family to get a great launch or just be born rich! The others have to struggle...yes a lot!
Lots of whys, unending vagaries...unending queries...all being thrown in a valley where they’ll be emptily echoed from!...Dear God, when I come up there make good time for me. I have all this and much much more to ask you ...lots which I can’t pen down here..lots which I might’ve forgotten to pen down here and lots which I shy down from penning down here!
I’ve confessed to my vagaries , I've confessed to being a non worshipper(mind you "not" non believer) –I stand by my beliefs and I stand by my people ( my family, friends and loved ones)! If God reads blogs or he’ll know of this one I’ll just hope he makes this world a better place and at least be nice to the people who worship him religiously and honestly, with good intentions and not just to feed him with sweets! For the rest just make the world a peaceful and nice liveable “surviveable” place where dreams can be realised, (even if it’s after a bit of struggle people should taste the fruit of success.) I hope he doesn’t keep success waiting from the “deserving” for as long as 15-20 yrs!!!(It’s commendable to see some who hold on , “still hold on” to their dreams so strongly! I bow down to all such!)
Here’s hoping for a better world for everyone and hoping that few words from this entry reach the ears of God....its me signing off from my childish mode for today! More in the next one....
What I’ve never been able to understand and I often keep wondering and foolishly keep questioning to the God “worshippers” around me is- Why is God so unjust and cruel towards certain living beings,be it humans or animals? Here I’m referring to people with birth defects.
Not very long ago, I had a chance to work with AIDS infected children at one of the NGOs and was surprised that when I was trying to collect more volunteers from my workplace most people’s first reactions were “Are we also going to get infected if we come in their close contact?” And then I thought, that question didn’t even strike me once? I just wanted to go and see how these kids lived and felt? I was curious...!More than curious I was just I don’t know what, I don’t have that word...for the first time I don’t have that right word...!But I knew I just wanted to go and I couldn’t thank my boss enough for asking me to organise this. Needless to say the experience was a joy. The kids were delighted to see us, receive the goodies from us and play games with us. Some of them said we should continue seeing them because they had a lot of fun with us and how I wish I could keep up to their expectations. Alas, the work pressure and travel schedules of my job couldn’t let me keep pace and I lost track. I’m still trying to see how I can touch base and be in touch and help these kids in my little ways that I can.
On another very recent occasion, I was leaving a friend’s house, when I saw a slightly bulky 20 something , mentally unstable boy running towards, me while I was getting out from the lift with something in his hand. My first reaction was “fear” and I immediately called my friend on the phone and my one leg was in the lift and the other outside it because I was unsure of his action. I asked if it was okay I crossed him and my friend replied there was nothing to worry. I felt embarrassed and very ashamed of myself for asking him that but, I think somewhere we all are conditioned in such a manner, that we tend to believe that a person who is mentally unstable might harm you or hit or throw things that they have in their hands at you! So when I crossed him I waved at him saying a “Hi”, but, to my dismay he didn’t respond, guess he knew how I felt! Sigh!
The next time I went to this friend’s house I saw this boy downstairs and said a “Hi” again. He was oblivious to anyone around him, playing in his make believe world, he totally ignored me. My 1st conversation was obviously about this boy when I reached up at my friend’s house. To my surprise or rather dismay I was told this boy’s mother passed away when he was very young. Now why would God do that? 1st make him the way he is and then take “his” mother out of all the children in the world? Leave him alone in this world where people stare at him and wonder why he is the way he is, make him incapable of a normal life and not good enough for his father’s old age either. Why would God be so harsh and cruel, if there is a God where is his sense of balance on earth?
The reason I’ve stopped visiting temples and doing any pujas is coz I don’t believe God really listens to this “makhanbaazi.” He does exactly what he wants to do and what he has planned to do no matter how many diyas you light for him and no matter how many stones you wear to please him or call him to you. I’ve been there done that. Had a mandir at home where I kept all possible idols and worshipped Gods from all religions. Now I believe in God and I do believe he created us and we survive in this world because of him and the theory of karma and paap and punya but at the same time , I can’t visit mandir,masjid,church or gurudwaras ( though I still hold that I got the max peace goin to the gurudwaras-they are the least politicised so far-nobody demands dakshina in the name of Lord-u give “if u want” to give & “if u can give”!) Though again, to each his own, with due respect to everyone who does this...this is my space and I’m voicing what I feel(coz I know this could be a target of a lot of unwanted comments and arguments here)
When I die and go to God I need to ask God a million things and he’ll have to spend some extra hours( a lot more than he’ll spend with many others ) to convince me with his answers on the why-s and why not-s on earth. He sent us on earth – ok, he is making us live a life he designed for us – ok, he rewards us, he punishes us , he makes us go through an array of emotions all unanswered- just felt and speculated. After all he will have to sit and answer his children sometime about thy "whys", like all parents do! (Here I’m assuming he’ll do it when I meet him up there)
Though there are a zillion childish questions in my edgy heart I’ll list down the ones that really bother me a lot :
Why does he say that all human beings are his children and make everyone differently then? I mean it’s okay to make someone more beautiful and someone less beautiful, some dark skinned and some light skinned. (to me very person is beautiful in their own special way, I have always snapped back at people who’ve called a fat or dark person “not beautiful”) But why put the idea of racism in their brains then?
Why did he create human beings and put religions in their head? Why did he have to happen differently to everyone in every corner of the world, could he not just come in one form , in one religion called God?!! More so, he came so strongly to everyone that everyone believes their origin and versions are correct and the rest are wrong...I’d rather not believe ‘any’ than being forced to believe so many! Please forgive me for the same God. I’d rather be ignorant than be a confused lunatic!
Why did he make people fall in love if they were not meant to be together forever? At this liminal I’m numb about love and relationships because the feeling has been spent on someone...someone it was never going to work out with. Someone genuinely a gem of a person, yet God chose to keep his gem away from him and mine away from me and made 2 wrong gems cross paths?! Why make wrong lovers cross paths, cause separation, tears, bitterness, sorrow, divorces - is that his idea of making poets out of people? God...I think I’m going crazy today , I’m writing whatever is coming to my mind..
The best poetry and lyrics come out of sad people’s lives...have read Meena Kumari’s nazms,Faiz’s poetry, Ghalib’s shers and lots others...”oh sweet pain, how you make poetry flow out of the most beautiful people’s lives ...even pain becomes sweet for it made words flow out and that becomes an outlet! Another wonder from God?!
Why put superstitious beliefs come true? Why let things like black magic become powerful enough to effect anything? I thought his power was the supreme? They must’ve come true sometime which’s why people fear and have the cures and solutions of those!
Why create rules in certain books which say following the music of your heart and soul is forbidden and will take you to hell...Would I have to go to hell if I dance to the music of my soul, the soul which you have put in me?
Why did he not make earth flat and make all climates for the entire world to enjoy together...?
Why the class disparity?
Why the rich the poor?
Why some have crores to spend on their moronic weddings and the others sleep on pavements?
Why some have 10 cars and a personal plane and others work their ass off and make their day and living in local trains! Do they work any less?! Some could, some not!
You want some destruction God? Okay, have it your way but, why don’t you have a natural disaster at a place where there are these corrupt politicians sitting together or these people who are spoiling the country fighting in the name of religion...why do you kill more poor innocents!?If you can't handle them together up there imagine us?!
How do u bear people fighting in the name of a piece of land of the birth place of some God?!!Demolishing places of worships, burning houses, burning trains, bombarding towers ,killing innocent people, raping women even children, is this what you would’ve thought they’d do in the name of you? Make sure you punish these people in your own way when they come up to you! No religion no God( though I believe there’s only one God) would approve of any such atrocious actions)
Why killings in the name of honour?Honour killing – I mean how can someone kill their own blood/kin for their stupid honour? What face will they show you, make sure you have the devil boil them in the hot oil for this. They have honour killings yet can’t make euthanasia legal for someone suffering since 35 yrs! They can’t hang Kasab who has killed hundreds of innocent people again in the name of religion!
Why he is letting man’s brain run so fast as to create things like drugs...for after using them man always feels next to God...?!!Is it? Did u really need to make drugs to make someone get close to you? When someone insisted I started it once I just had 1 thing to say- Where you see heaven I see a haven of wasteland my friend and am glad I’ve stuck my ground! Again...to each his own- I have absolutely nothing against the people who do it and go next to God with this, have some absolutely amazing awesome people I’ve known who do this and it just gets me curious so I put this up here, nothing else!
Why did u think of creating Adam and Eve and not 2 Adams and 2 Eves...with the changing ways of the world and changing preferences , shouldn’t you have started the world in such a way that people wouldn’t have pointed fingers at homosexuals! May be you could’ve had 2 more Eves and 2 more Adams...hmmmm...again..I dunno what am I writing now...I guess, the smoke from the last night’s party has gone to my brain cells and done this! Imagine just the smoke doing this to me...I bet the ciggys n alcohol does much more to people! ;-) lol..
You bring everyone to life and then you make us lose ourselves in something or the other- in love,in life,in alcohol- everyone is somewhere trying to search for themselves or something else!!! When will the search end...?
I saw the movie The Gods must be crazy...don't know why but loved that one community living in total ignorance of this world created by us humans! I can’t go to living like them because I’ve not grown up like them but , had I grown up there I think I wouldn’t have had migraines or any such stress related ailments bothering me at my age!
Why have so many patients in so many hospitals?...Why so many old age homes and thankless kids abandoning their parents? Parents who’ve made them grow up being left at the mercy of some nurses who don’t care much about listening to their life stories...
On a lighter and more closer look to my life – I wonder how God allows this to happen?Why some directors who make flop films one after the other, get finances and releases , yet, the others with fantastic scripts are sitting in their confines waiting for a f$*%@ big actor or a producer or someone to strategise it for them?!Why some struggle to be launched as actors yet others just have to be born in a film family to get a great launch or just be born rich! The others have to struggle...yes a lot!
Lots of whys, unending vagaries...unending queries...all being thrown in a valley where they’ll be emptily echoed from!...Dear God, when I come up there make good time for me. I have all this and much much more to ask you ...lots which I can’t pen down here..lots which I might’ve forgotten to pen down here and lots which I shy down from penning down here!
I’ve confessed to my vagaries , I've confessed to being a non worshipper(mind you "not" non believer) –I stand by my beliefs and I stand by my people ( my family, friends and loved ones)! If God reads blogs or he’ll know of this one I’ll just hope he makes this world a better place and at least be nice to the people who worship him religiously and honestly, with good intentions and not just to feed him with sweets! For the rest just make the world a peaceful and nice liveable “surviveable” place where dreams can be realised, (even if it’s after a bit of struggle people should taste the fruit of success.) I hope he doesn’t keep success waiting from the “deserving” for as long as 15-20 yrs!!!(It’s commendable to see some who hold on , “still hold on” to their dreams so strongly! I bow down to all such!)
Here’s hoping for a better world for everyone and hoping that few words from this entry reach the ears of God....its me signing off from my childish mode for today! More in the next one....
tu bahut jayda achcha likhti hai anju....
ReplyDeleteek din inn sabko kitab me chapna chahiye....
laut aayeinge ye din panna ulat-te hi yoon zindagi me...
jaise kabhi beete hi nahi the...
kabhi guzre hi nahi the hum jaise inn dinno se....
ek panne ke udhar hai tham chukki aur idhar hai chalti hui zindagi....
kabhi raat ko sone se pehle jab paltogi inn panno ko....
to dekhogi anjali tum apne inn beete dinno ko...
jhurridaar haath jab thaame hue honge zindagi ke kuch sunehre panne...
chashma lagi aankhein raat raat bhar jaaga kareingi....
socha karogi inhi dinno ko,padhkar apni kitab mein...
jab kissi naati potte ka pair lagega tumhe galhti se...
aur laut aaogi tum kissi khyaal se bahar...
der raat ho gayi hai aaj,jaisa kuch budbudaaogi tum....
aur uthogi kissi batti ko bujhane....
pyaas lagi hai,sochti hoon paani pe loon....
haaye mui ye dawai yahin paddi hai abhi....
kitaab wohin tabel par rakh kar...dawai uthalogi tum....
batti band kar tohte tohte jab bistar par aaogi..
saath rakhe gilaas se katori hatakar,aaj der hogayi..wali dawai khaogi....
aur ek haath rakhkar bachche ke maathe ....aadhi karwat let jaaogi..
paaogi khud ko lete hue apne bachpann ke saath...
kissi buzurg ki duaaon me lipte hue....
jahan se shuru hui thi aur jahan tak aayi hai zindgi...
pahloo ye zindgi ke dono...saath saath lete hue....
jisme ek chain hoga...ek umeed hogi....ek sapna hoga...ek khushi hogi....
subah jab ye bachpann jagega....to lipat jaaongi iss-se...
jisme kal raat dekha tha maine...
khud ko....
jisme kal raat paaya tha maine..
khud ko..
love u.
h.
Other day I n ma bro were discusing same things, we often discus stuff like this, there r no satisfactory answers to all this.....
ReplyDeletebut there is a story abt Musas the prophit who used to ask God some unusual questions. Once he asked the same question which u hav asked here. They say God replied u lack knowledge. On Musas' insistanc God send him to a voyage with another prophit(Khezer).
During traviling while crossing a river in a boat, Khezer the prophit drilled a hole in the boat.
On the evening of that day while looking for shelter they got a nights accomodation in an orphans house, in the morning Khezer destroyed the fencing of that house.
Third incident they saw lot of children playing one of them blind and sitting aside. Musas asked enough is enough I can not take it any more, u r doing injustice to the people who are good to us and now look at this child. Khezer replied u lack knowledge, Musas replied then show me the knowledge......
On this Khezer prayed and the child got his eye sight back. He started playing with other kids around, while playing he got a knife and stabed other two kids and the kids lost their eye sight. On this Khezer told Musas in half an Hour of normalcy he did this what if he was normal for a life time, Khezer prayed and child lost his eye sight. Musas asked what abt the boat and the fencing. Khezer replied the boatman is nice man, there is a cruel King in his locality next day in the mornig he will order all the boat men for some work without paying them and work is dangerous too, as his boat is not working he will get the exception. Musas asked what abt the fencing and the reply was the person is very poor, there is a treasure right under the fencing area as I destroyed the fencing he will dig there to lay the foundation for the wall while digging he will discover the treasure.
On this Musas apologized God and said "I really lack knowledge".
I am not justifying what looks injustice to human eye, but as we are helpless what we can say every thing happens for good.
You are atleast approving one religion, I think there should hav been no religion at all.
Cuming to ur other question, Why all people r not equal, even though I do not read religious books, but once I saw in a religious book(do not want to name the book here) God says, "I created you in caste creed and diffrently from one another so that u will have a identification not becuase any one of u is less important to me".
If life was equal for every one of us then being human would not have been that good an adventure. As they say "Being human is better than being angel, but it takes hell of a hard work".
Beautiful writing, u shud rit a book, who knows u may end up with a brooker prize.
This blog looks intersting and so does u, hope to meet you sooon and discus all this......
because I gues we hav got same thinking.........................
Keep posting good stuff frequently.......
Thnx 4 the such a beautifull post......
Hi!!!!!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteWud lik 2 meet u.
Wanna know how???????
@H-thanks for that lovely long messg ...beautiful peice of poetry uv put up there...thanks for the lovely words...infact was discussing something similar with my sister the other day and here u penned them down...:)))
ReplyDeletelove the -"jisme ek chain hoga...ek umeed hogi....ek sapna hoga...ek khushi hogi....
subah jab ye bachpann jagega....to lipat jaaongi iss-se...
jisme kal raat dekha tha maine...
khud ko....
jisme kal raat paaya tha maine..
khud ko.."
@Anonymous-thanks for all the kind words from u and many thanks for sharing this story...another friend of mine also recently shared the same story with me...however,my discontentment even then was why would God make him kill people after giving him eyes and complain...?Don't all the others who go about on rampant killings n wars have eyes n brains too..?They do...yet they are alive n r causing destruction...why not take away the eyes of such people...but,again...God has reasons n the reasons will b all explained up there...thanks for sharing and taking out time to read my blog and appreciating it...
Please don't mind,if uv read my previous entries u shud also know I'm very closed about my life and people and friends...I appreciate u taking out time to read this blog but,I don't meet strangers and I'm pretty closed to making new friends...if and when they happen on the cross roads of life it'll b God willing,so don't embarrass me and urself by asking to chat or meet me...thanks and sorry if it offends u.
Sorry havn't gone through ur other blogs.
ReplyDeleteInshaAllah will some day.
I was not asking for any sort of planned or worked out meeting, may be someday out of default. May be I didn't put it clearly. Anyways, U r gr8, so keep on posting. Bit hesitant to ask u(don't misunderstand me as chipko kinda of person), r u on facebook.
In continuation of the previous comment. Sorry if it offended u.................
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