I wonder

So many days have passed by with me writing some unfinished thoughts which haven’t reached their conclusiveness. Today some of them actually came fighting to me and asked me to give them a release. It made me think why I left those thoughts where they were. If I could write as fast as the thoughts pace through my mind I sure can create a hurricane of writings one after the other.

I’m sure it happens with a lot of us that we are thinking about something and alongside another thought comes and pushes it aside and sits comfortably in its place. This happens with me when I’m observing life & people, in the idle time that I too often have these days. Most of these times, the current thought remains hung in a limbo while the new ones take over, hence leaving the 1st one ignored and unattended. I put some of them together and bring them to finality.

During my travel to Delhi from Mumbai, I went through an array of emotional discords. I wondered about various ‘supposedly insignificant and unnoticeable’ things. I list some below:

Infants – While playing with my nephew I realised and wondered how a child cries and coos and smiles all at the same time. It’s the most adorable thing to see.1 moment he’s crying for his mother’s feed and at the same time I was laughing and playing with him so he started cooing and smiling. Then suddenly, because he’d started crying earlier, a tear trickled down from the corner of his eye while he was smiling at me. A priceless, precious moment which I’ll never forget.

Dogs- My dog, a golden brown Lhasa apso, is 12.5 yrs old and has developed cataract in 1 eye apart from few other illnesses. Every month the poor thing has to be given some injection or the other. He is by far, the most sensitive and sensible dog I’ve ever seen in my life. With his sensitivity and smartness I sometimes think, he was meant to be human. He's truly an angel. Looking at him growing old, I wondered- why do dogs age so fast? So much faster than humans. It’s so unfair. He’s like a child in the family and just the thought that he has very little time left amid us scares me no end!

Discipline and routine- I discontinued my Yoga and walk when I took a week’s vacation to Delhi and joined my dance classes. Since then I’ve been trying hard to wake up early morning and restart the routine, but, I have to admit I’m failing miserably. Tomorrow I promise to bring it back to action for at least 5-6 days in the week. Makes me wonder how difficult it is to get back life in discipline and restart your normal routine once you once you break it.

I also wonder why I start so many things and thoughts and leave them mid way. Here’s hoping that with the New Year approaching I can give all these thoughts a new life, a final end or a new beginning!