Alone yet content with herself...

To kill the curiosity on why this blog is called Aphrodisiac Angel:) is coz it reminds me of my best friends with whom I have spent some crazy and wild times in Delhi.We were called the Charlie's Angels and then someone rechristened us as Aphrodisiac Angels ;-)

Coming to her life :(Moving in 3rd person till we reach her present)

She’s a single girl who shifted in the city of dreams called Mumbai some 2 n a half yrs back. Working with a corporate co.in Sales, she most definitely understood what aggression meant and how a single girl should handle herself alone in this city or any other for that matter. Their father brought them up more like sons than daughters and that helped in more ways than one! Whether it was being blunt & forthright or being a no nonsense person, she had been taught to stand up for herself!

For someone who had forever been sheltered by family and never stayed alone, this seemed like quite a task. But the day she stepped in this city something told her she’ll stay here forever. People doubted and remarked that she’ll not be able to handle the pressures of this city! This was the first challenge she took on herself, when she stepped her foot from that plane!

“I’ve not come to return, I’ve come to rise up from here “she told herself. Today she’s happy people doubted her abilities coz that’s what gave her the strength and courage to prove them wrong.

She loves it when people laugh at her dreams. Firstly, these people don’t have many of their own, secondly, unknowingly they give her the courage to try her best and live up to her dreams and and make them a reality!

They challenged her ability to sustain in this city and she prove them wrong. As they say- ‘when u want something bad enough, the entire universe collaborates together to make u achieve that.’ And so it did for her in the first case.

She has wanted many things badly foremost in her list being-Love.It has always been the centre of her life. Once in love, she forgets herself! Too much of everything is bad even if that is too much love.That's what she realised from her last relationship cz being too much in love and giving the man too much of her time and attention killed her individuality and herself as a person.In the end the man anyways left her and moved on.He never was hers'.She was clutching onto a wrong dream this time.Everything in life is impermanent and so is love! She realised this through this man.When we say “This too shall pass” it holds true for good and bad times both.So with a hope of a better tomorrow she restarted her journey and gained composure.She realised that somewhere down the line however, her dreams seem to be getting lost in wilderness as the desire for love overpowers everything. Inspite of facing the brunt of it she took time learning her lesson. She’s a live example of “Fools never learn” But for her sake hope she has understood now that there is more to life than love.

She tends to get nonchalant about certain people n things, but then that’s purely by choice! She never has had too many close friends. 1 or 2 people at any given point in time who she confides in wholeheartedly. That doesn’t make her “closed,” just choosy and careful now. ‘Once bitten twice shy,’ so she prefers scanning people before letting them in now. The hurt they cause when they leave is too much to handle. As of now she is single, sometimes very alone but, pretty much content with herself and her own company. Just wish she doesn’t get too used to the staying alone bit!